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God’s Gift

Friday, July 25, 2008

God has created everyone different and presents different blessings to each person. From my personal life, I would like to talk about my own struggles, and about a comment Michael Savage had made recently. Let me start out by presenting some background.

Five years ago, I was a sophomore in college struggling with many of my classes. My major problem in my classes were completing exams. It took me two times longer to read passages and organize my thoughts to write it down. As well, the many times it took me just to concentrate on the task of completing the exam. After about twenty years, struggling through classes, having people incorrectly interpreting what I’m trying to describe to them, and not being able to understand why I cannot hold back my thoughts, I was formally diagnosed with dyslexia and attention deficit disorder.

Looking back further, my mother took me to many psychologists for years. In that time, they all diagnosed me with attention deficit disorder, and all were partially correct. I remember, as a child, feeling inferior to other children. In elementary school, I was placed in special education courses for English and Writing. As for the other courses, I was in normal classes. Many children saw I left the classroom during those times, and teased me because I was absent. I remember it took me twice as long to read and analyze the reading assignments at school. Eventually, I stopped placing effort in all school related activities.

In fact, ran away from my problems with school, and I didn’t want to attend school any more. After graduating from high school, I enlisted in the United States Navy. Eventually, that was cut short because after boot camp I received a medical discharge. At this point I had no other choice but to go to college.

Let’s fast forward to my sophomore year of college. My fiance and I were at Barnes and Noble, she was looking through a medical psychology book and found a description of the many problems she saw me struggling with in school. It indicated that I was dyslexic. At that point, I wanted to investigate the possibility of being dyslexic. I used school resources to examine if I was dyslexic. At the end I was discovered to be dyslexic with attention deficit disorder.

For a long time, I felt that God had cursed me. Why can I not function like everyone else? I found that I had a high intelligence quotient, but I am only processing at 2/3 of my full potential. After getting more time on my exams and some projects, my grades improved. I went from a B/C student to a A/B student. It was great, but I still felt inferior; the fact that I needed the extra time and a special room to take my exams did not help my self-esteem. “God has given me a curse”, is what I would think for a long time. Eventually I graduated from college and started to work.

More problems have came up from my disabilities. People look at me and think I am a “know it all” or an arrogant person. In business, it is not enough to only be competent in the work given, but also learn to interact with people. WHY, GOD? To learn to be humble is what I have learned. I had the guts to start going to confession after ten years and now I have to suck it up and go to the doctor. Today, I am now on some medications to help me with my attention deficient disorder and he recommended a book to help me with my confidence and self-esteem. In the last few days, I have had more restraint and am trying to focus on holding back from freely giving my ideas out. I am already having some change in my interaction with others.

I write this post for people to try to at least understand the problems that people face with learning disabilities. I found some positives to being dyslexic that many people may not know about which are:

• Perception: the ability to alter and create perceptions;
• Highly aware of the environment;
• Highly curious;
• Great intuition and insightful;
• Thinking and perceiving multi-dimensionally (using all the senses);
• A lively imagination;
• Can experience thought as reality;
• Creativity;
• Easy adoption of change;
• Holistic, see the big picture, don’t get lost in details, get to the important aspects;
• See patterns, connections, and similarities very easy;
• Concentration;
• Can be very driven, ambitious and persistent;
• Superior reasoning;
• Capable of seeing things differently than others;
• Love for complexity;
• Simultaneous multiple thought processing;
• Not following the crowd;
• The ability of visual, spatial and lateral thinking. [1]

Although I have a lot a positives, I also have quite a bit of problems such as:

• Have difficulty taking notes or copying
• Difficulty with planning and writing essays, letters, and reports
• Tendency to read inaccurately, or without comprehension
• Inconsistent spelling
• Tendency to confuse verbal instructions
• Confuse phone numbers
• Severe difficulty with learning a foreign language
• Difficulty with perception of spoken language, e.g. following instructions, listening comprehension
• Low self-esteem. [2]

God has shown me that I need to be humble and to know that I need help. Today I have received help and am relying more on others to help me. Today, I found only through working with others will make me successful, more so than any “normal” person. Since I need people to read or repeat or scribe what happened in the meeting.

The other reason I created this post was to comment on Michael Savage[3] thoughts about people with learning disabilities as being a shame. It made me think about myself and how hard it is for me from day to day to function at work or school. As Catholics, we learn that with adversity comes understanding. I hope from this small example of my life and problems, people will understand what people with learning disabilities go through in life without having knowledge as a child.

I also want people to understand that we have become a society that is too polarized. A society that everything is night or day. People like Michael Savage present facts incorrectly and people listen to him because it is easy. They don’t see the people like myself that could have been caught earlier and had more time to deal with my disability. I was a child that thought I needed to suck it up and school was not my thing. I later learned it wasn’t and I want to learn more everyday. His comment, even if he thought people took it out of context, was a sign that he is incompetent as a doctor (PhD). As I recall, doctor means teacher. As any good teacher one has to do extensive homework, before making comments as Savage did, only to confuse the ignorant. As well as educating the masses in what potentially can cause the problem in the first place.

I found it ironic that Savage called for parents to chide a child with autistic tendencies to “act like a man,” given that many leading researchers consider autism to be an extreme manifestation of the male brain. In fact, one theory that’s attracting attention is that fetuses that produce high levels of testosterone in the womb have a tendency to exhibit autistic behavior as young children. And it seems to me that the messages society directs toward boys about “sucking it up” could actually exacerbate any tendencies to withdraw. According to the Center for Disease Control and Prevention’s latest count, the prevalence of autism among boys is between 2.8 and 5 times that of girls. [4 ]

God has given me a true gift. As with any gift, one just has to learn to use it and overcome its difficulties. As we all need to grow everyday, we should understand that everyone is here for a reason.

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